ditto

i feel like crying. i just wrote a test... which i am pretty positive i failed. there is no way in hell i could have passed. If i did, it will be a shitty mark, and wont exceed the already shitty mark i have in that class.

i feel empty inside. i cant recall, the last time i wrote a test and felt confident about it. i cant recall the last 80 or 90 percent i got on a test. it has been a fucking while. i feel so lost. i hate how i look around at people i dont know, and know they are doing better than me. I hate comparing myself to people i could give a fuck for.

i am bitter, and really wish that everyone around me failed that test just as hardcore as i did. if they did really well... i hope they fall down a flight of stairs... maybe even die. Yes, thats how bad i feel.