Monday, May 25, 2009

parting words



i've departed with my livejournal, facebook and twitter. I am contemplating on whether or not to keep my blogger. I think, i'll be abandoning it for the time being... and maybe return to it at a later point in time that is TBD. trying to be not so dependent on the internet... and spending time on here. it's my summer, and im doing more fun and better things.

Sincere apologies to the like 4.5 people out there who read this blog. Until then, i'll keep my msn status on away, and my blackberry in arms length. Perhaps I'll catch you in a few. In all seriousness, Ive been too caught up with my own life, so contacting me would probably be better than the other way around, because odds are i wont be contacting anyone. If you still cant reach me, im sure someone on the internet can tell you how you can get a hold of me.



Sorry y'all, back to watching Armageddon on STARZ

Sunday, May 24, 2009

NTS: stop crying

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

you act as if you're the only one

yaaaaay life. im so hungry :(.
should i eat ice cream? i think im gonna eat ice cream.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

FUCKING SPOILER ALERT!


chills surge through my body... even on the 8th time.

grudge free (for now LOL)

Thursday, May 14, 2009

sasha fierce

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

the whackiest

today after my exhausting 3 hour lab i decided to do something with my life, and eat. I walked to Mr. Sub, and stared at the sub-girl. As she was making my sub, she told that the next time i was on youtube, that i should youtube: drunken delight. she then proceeded to sing me snippets of BSB and Aqua.

I wonder how many of these guys went AWOL, once their homophobe superior found this video was in existence.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

made her say ahhh ahhh

do not test me.

i don't care who you are... i am the Queen of holding grudges. Believe that.

Monday, May 11, 2009

8:27 am

currently fighting through an anxiety attack. i feel like barfing. im talking to myself under my breath, and i just told myself to shut up. fingers crossed. toes crossed. legs crossed.

anxiety attack over!! :) YAY. calming down with purelife water, and empire of the sun.

class at 10-12. home. workout after 5.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

ya so basically...

my jaw dropped. reading that text message was totally not what i expected to see. my emotions are kind of all over the place, even though i really have nothing to do with this.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

so much for prioritizing

the more and more i interact with people, the more i realize i'd rather be alone. yep yep, it's shitty... but eh what can you do.

this song reminds me of janine, and she was at my house last night

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

hands in the air, bobbing your head


i cant listen to this song without closing my eyes and letting the beat take control of my body.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

really?

im thinking im gonna throw a BBQ for either cinco de mayo... or the weekend.


so embarassing.

Friday, May 1, 2009

fingers crossed

i love hospitals. i love the weird smells, hallways, waiting rooms, nursing stations, han-san stations... everything. it has always been a (sick and twisted) dream of mine, to be a long-term/terminally ill patient at a hospital (on the condition that im at least 19-45... the younger the better). I want to be hooked up to an IV, and call it my banana bag. I want to hook up the oxygen tank to my face, and watch the monitor as my heart beats. I want the anxiety of the doctor coming in with updates. Counting down days. Watching the people try and sit with uncomfortable feeling in the pits of their stomachs. The random "codes" that go off during the say. I just want it. I obviously know that being sick and in a hospital is not something someone should wish for, but i really do fantasize about it, as crazy and unnecessary as it seems. I think it has to do with the fact that in my short 19 years i have been alive, i have countless times been a visitor to the sick and dying... it just makes me wonder what it would be like to be the one visited.