Monday, March 30, 2009

pppppppparty

speaking of palm reading:
at church (i know... i went to church, SHOCKING).. anyway at church, carolines sister took my hands, and said i was going to live a long life. i was greatly disappointed.

Friday, March 27, 2009

PEOPLE WHO RULE PT I

So I'm gonna start a segment where I blog about people who I think rule (if the title didn't give it away already).

Andrea K. Carbonell


If it isn't evident who that is, it is no other than my baby sister. We share parents, clothes, tastes in boys, music and food. We look a like, once we were even asked if we were twins (that person was obviously an idiot).

People call her Andrea, Drea even (which i find horrendous)... but I call her Ange. We are born four years apart. If i had to explain her, she's the girl from your highschool who you only stare at, cuz you know shes such a bitch. Only when talking to her you realize shes actually not that bad... or that shes a total bitch. The ultimate daddy's girl. And she can probably steal your boyfriend's attention for a hot second, even when you're paying close attention. A total cupcake, who... depending on the weather will bake you a cupcake.

Why Andrea Rules? well because i am a narcissist and love myself, and my sister reminds me of myself... that's why. Kidding. She's pretty awesome, besides the fact that she is my sister. She has a rocking body. She always has enough girls on her case. She is a really funny drunk. She is a baker! She shares sometimes. She lets me sleep in her bed when i am sad. When she was younger, she was a sick ass reggae dancer. Since then... the ability had been lost. She comes into your room and bugs you. She's a sweet piece of eye-candy. She's an awesome Guitar Hero player. She's a bipolar maniac.

Yeah she rocks.


sufficiently awkward



because at my wedding, I'm going to sing this with my dad.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

mirrors

Myself I shall adore,
If I persist in gazing.

No object sure before,
Was ever half so pleasing.
tonight when i get home... im going to hook my laptop to my speakers and subwoofer... shut the lights off... blast some Robin S, and have myself a solo dance party.

like a rolling stone

im sitting in the library, main floor, exposed to anyone in this place. im fighting back tears. this week has been one of the most stressful... and its only wednesday. i dont know what to do anymore. i dont know if what im doing is right. i dont even know if i care anymore. everything has been shot out the window for me.

To answer your question from earlier...
No. No, we are not okay. Sorry.


because Adele makes us feel better

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

addicted

dear grey's anatomy
i fucking hate you.
you have this power over me, that i can never resist!
this is so frustrating.
so good, but so frustrating!

you make me cry like no other.
i basically love you.

lol, so i have been 'living' with my sister for the past 2 days.
i havent been inside my room for longer than maybe an additive 10 minutes a day.
ive only been in there, to look for clothes, and thats about it.
living with andrea is hilarious.

Monday, March 23, 2009

lies are worse

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aluwpslpygQ

thank you andrea

i just wanna daaaaance


basically my anthem of life.

my chem ta is so hot. he kind of reminds me of rob dyrdek.

im not meredeth grey

theres no point in me trying to disguise this. i am sad... ive been sad.
i've been saying i wanted to do something, drastic, stupid and irrational... this just might be it.

i dont feel its necessary for me to explain why. im hoping you'll forgive me.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_09CUtiMwu4 (embedding was disabled sry)
ouch. that one hit real close to home.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

when i say theres nothing wrong, there is either
a) nothing wrong
b) something wrong, but i would rather not make it anyone elses problem
c) i just like to be alone (and weird)

more times than never it is option d.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

hells yeah



im in love with it right now. so badass LOL.

holes



a) yes its real
b) it didnt hurt
c) my parents dont know yet

:D

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

ditto

i feel like crying. i just wrote a test... which i am pretty positive i failed. there is no way in hell i could have passed. If i did, it will be a shitty mark, and wont exceed the already shitty mark i have in that class.

i feel empty inside. i cant recall, the last time i wrote a test and felt confident about it. i cant recall the last 80 or 90 percent i got on a test. it has been a fucking while. i feel so lost. i hate how i look around at people i dont know, and know they are doing better than me. I hate comparing myself to people i could give a fuck for.

i am bitter, and really wish that everyone around me failed that test just as hardcore as i did. if they did really well... i hope they fall down a flight of stairs... maybe even die. Yes, thats how bad i feel.

Monday, March 16, 2009



i wonder if you wonder

Saturday, March 14, 2009

today was such a shitty day

Friday, March 13, 2009

i love this way, cuz i got it as a kid

so my dad thinks im crazy, and when i say crazy... i mean clinically insane. fml? nope. he isnt too far from the truth.

sleep is my best friend and worst enemy

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

my body, your body

i was walking down to the basement with a friend. She sat down in a cubicle a seat away from me. i took of my jacket, and placed it on the back of my chair. She looked at me and said, "Carla, you look soo good!" Me being confused, and quick to dismiss any form of compliment, asked her what she meant. I thought she meant my outfit (i was trying the whole tucking my shirt into my pants look) but she said that i lost weight. I was so excited, and asked her if she can actually notice. She said yes. Accomplishments in life! hopefully she wasnt lying :D

why is it all of a sudden, everyone is on that lykke li tip? whatever. ive seen Little Bit posted just about anywhere and everywhere.

im hungry.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

what..we..fighting...4, 3, 2, 1

it never ceases to amaze me why people dont flush the toilets in public places. i think people have a little too much faith in the fact that the toilets are "automatic" so they just leave, thinking there mess will be long gone, the instant they step out of the stall. Clearly this is not the case. People... start flushing your toilets.

Lent has been going on for about 12 days now. that means that i have been abstinent for the 12 days of lent.. but in reality, i have been abstinent for 15 days. Temptation is a bad mother fucker. Yeah it sucks.

speaking of sex

Friday, March 6, 2009

red on white

so today my sister called me when i was in an area of really bad reception. my phone had just died, so i borrowed sica's phone. i stepped outside of the bad reception area, and dialed home. my sister answered the phone, and i asked her if anyone had called. She responded saying that she had called earlier to ask how to use my macbook to upload pictures, but she didnt need my help anymore since she figured it out. I said okay, and was about to hang up the phone, when she told me, that she had been looking through my pictures i had taken on my iSight camera, and that i was really pretty, and she thought she needed to tell me that. I was caught a little bit off guard, and told her to calm. we said goodbye, and hung up the phone. I closed the phone... smiled... and walked back into the bad reception area.


Wednesday, March 4, 2009

save me



when it comes down to it, i just wanna meet a boy who can play me the guitar whenever i am sad, while making me sad when he plays his guitar.

and LOL @ the drummers chest, in that skin colored vneck.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

arteries and veins

im the kind of person that needs to be places early. I need to go to all my lectures 5 or 10 minutes before the the "o'clock" even if the class starts at ten after. However, i strongly dislike when the lecture hall starts to fill more and more, and people start talking about their tests, studying and all that stuff i could care less to hear about, at 9am in the morning. sometimes i would really like to turn people on mute... opposed to my truly repressed feelings to slash their necks. for now, all i have is to plug in my headphones and listen to a song of my choice to drown out the silence. right now, its Boyz II Men... but that's gonna change to The Bled in less than 10 seconds.

i have an anatomy test of thursday. to which i have only studied like.. 2 lectures. there are 6.

im so sleepy. i have a quiz today... which i will probably end up failing. its okay :)

so tired.

Monday, March 2, 2009

dick moves

i kind of feel like one of those stupid girls that i make fun of.
the ones who's boyfriends treat them like shit, but they go back to them anyway.
not saying i have a boyfriend or anything, but the analogy still reigns true.
in some senses, i feel like i was chris brown'ed almost, with rihanna going back to cbreezy and all, after the infamous beatdown.

sometimes when i think about it, i tear up.

why wont it stop bothering me? make it stop.

my room is freezing.